Bullet for Love

One woman decided to do something sarcastic to her mother by shooting herself at her left calf. However, this incident led her to meet her present husband. She had lost her beloved daughter. And, the story that will be a good lesson for gambling people. https://dmc.tv/a2341

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[ Aug 9th, 2007 ] - [ read : 16712 ]
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Bullet for Love
Dear Luang Phaw,
    There is nothing in the world that can compare to losing a beloved one. From the day I heard about my daughter’s death, I who was the unfortunate mother, nearly fell apart. My tears were as ‘tears of blood’.  

Because of DMC and Luang Phaw, I could gradually take this loss of the beloved one which is common in this world.  I would like to request for your mercy to enlighten a way for me and others in reaching the real happiness.

I was a grocery seller.  After watching DMC, I decided to stop selling alcohols and cigarettes.  I started to sell the monks’ requisites, coffins, and some other groceries remained.  I was a country girl with a simple and easy life; however, I experienced love swiftly because of love-bullets.

The story is, in 1979, I was a 19 year old teenager.  I sometimes hung out with friends in a village.  However, my mother always complained me.  This made me feel inferior.  I decided to do something sarcastic to her by shooting at my left calf.  The bullet got to a middle part and broke a small bone.  I felt a little pain.  Little Pain.

Immediately after the first gunfire, a cupid scarily woke up and pointed a pity arrow to a new teacher who accidentally passed by.  He saw me bleeding all over my calf.  He showed a lot of pity on me, even though we had never known each other.  He hurriedly picked me up like a hero helping a heroine, in a Thai movie.

Later, he brought me to a hospital.  Relationship started unexpectedly.  He came to visit me at the hospital every day.  He bought food and desert.  He kept asking what I wanted and he would buy it.  He had a polite talk and spoiled me with his sweet eyes.

After work, he came to take care of me at the hospital without going anywhere.  He stayed until visiting hours were over, and then he would go home.  If he came late any day, I would be looking at the door for him.  Once he arrived, I would pretend to ignore him.  This had been a secret in my mind.  Luang Phaw, please do not tell anyone as I am embarrassed.  

He had regularly been visiting me for two months.  After I was discharged from the hospital, he immediately asked his mother to propose me.  I did not refuse as I was afraid that he would be sad.  We got married as per our good tradition.  Until now we have our three witnesses of love.

My husband is a good, open-minded, and helpful person.  He helps everyone who is in trouble.  He is a government teacher.  He had a hobby which should not be.  It was hunting.  He went out hunting for wild pigs, deer, and wild turkeys.

He quit hunting now.  As after installing DMC, I know the truth of life from Luang Phaw.  I silently debated.  When my husband brought dead animals back home, I did not care to cook those animals for him.  I did this many times until he stopped hunting by himself.

My first daughter was a good girl and obedient. She regularly comes to Dhammakaya temple to accrue merit, meditate, and also bring her friends along. She said she was a new generation that had to be good and proficient.

When she was 21 years old, she was sophomore of 2 universities, which were Ramkamhang and Rangsit University.

She normally stayed at dome in Bangkok. After final exam, she often went back to her home town in country side.

Her last day had come in the beginning of March 2004 during her stay in her home town. She was packing her clothes many days in advance to be ready to go back to her dome in Bangkok, and to attain merits at Dhammkaya temple on Magha Puja Day (5 March 2004).

Unfortunately on March 04, 2004, my oldest daughter drove with my mother, my husband’s mother, and her close friend to get treatment at Srinakarin Hospital as to doctor’s appointment.

The distance from home to hospital was 150 kilometers. There was an accident on the way back. My oldest daughter’s car was losing control and went straight to hit a tree. She passed away immediately. My husband’s mother died at hospital the next day. My mother and her close friend survived but were in coma.  

During 7 days after my daughter‘s death, I tried to talk to her astral body of every great refinement to realize on every merit that was accrued, and I also told her to circumambulate at Maha Dhammakaya Cetiya. I later on offered the requisite to join casting 300,000 Buddha images for my daughter. I followed all principle from Luang Phaw’s teaching.

My mother was a hot tempered person, and she liked to eat food that have to kill animals alive for freshness. I tried to tell her not to exploit animal that we would cook for food, but my mother said “Those animals are born to be our food; killing them is not demerit”.

My mother currently has 9 diseases, such as leg pain, neck pain, diabetes, blood pressure, heart disease, and so on. She used to have an accident that caused her serious injury but she survived. I told her that all diseases came from killing kamma, but my mother said “Luang Phaw does not kill any animals, but why he still has pain in his legs”. How could I make my mother to have right view?

My husband’s sister worked for government, but she liked gambling. She built debt many times, and I have to pay back her debts. She still kept gambling, and that affected her wok.
She had a lot of debts, and she had to escape from the creditors. She also quit her job, and left her 3 children with her husband.

Later on her husband left the children with me and started a new family. I have to take care of them and all expenses. My husband’s sister had disappeared and lost contact for more than 10 years.

In year 2000, her colleagues who worked in construction site at Nakorn Nayok with her, brought her back home. She had HIV disease in last stage. At that time I was not home, only my mother, who denied having her back so her friends took her back to Nakorn Nayok.

I heard that a Buddhist monk at Nakorn Nayok helped her by giving a shelter. He assigned a small work to her at that temple. Not so long after, she passed away at the age of 43 with HIV. The Buddhist monk had mercy to arrange a funeral for her.


1) Had my husband been a hunter so that he likes to hunt on holidays? What should he do to resolve this retribution?

2) What retribution made my oldest daughter and my husband’s mother die from car accident?

How were they during the first 7 days after both of them died?  

Where have they been reborn after passing away? How are their living conditions? Have they passed any messages to me?

3) What made my mother and my daughter’s close friend severely injured, but survived?

4) In what society did my mother use to be born so she has false belief that “killing animals for food is not demerit”?

My mother said, “Luang Phaw does not kill animals but he still has pain in his legs”. What should I answer her? What should I do to change her belief into the right way?

5) What kamma made my husband’s older sister addicted to playing cards and have lots of debts which caused her to leave her government career to escape from creditors?

When she came back to die at my house but my mother refused her to stay. What retribution brought this?

6) What wholesomeness made my husband’s sister receive the mercy from a Buddhist monk in Nakorn Nayok province by being taken care until her last moment and he also arranged funeral for her?

7) What retribution made my husband’s sister pass away with AIDS? Where has she been reborn after passing away? How is her living condition?

8) What kamma did I have so I have to repay my husband’s sister’s debts from gambling and raise and support three of her children?

9) What kamma did I do in the past so that in this life I shot my leg? Why this incident made me and my husband fall in love?

10) Why have I lost in business since I quit selling groceries and changed to sell monks’ requisites and coffins although I have never missed making merits in generosity offering perfection, percept observance and meditation? (However, I still sell fish trapping nets, bird trapping nets, pesticides that have left from selling grocery since 1997. I would like to quit many times but I could not completely quit selling them.)

11) How had I, my husband and three of my children pursued perfection with the Dhammakaya community? How was our meditation progress? Has my third son have lifetime ordination blueprint?

I would like to pay my highest respects to you, Luang Phaw.
Luang Phaw's Dream

I closed my eyes, dreamed and woke up with these answers.
When you tell anybody the story like a tale, it will make anyone know more about retribution (Law of Kamma)
1) In the past life, your husband truly used to be a hunter and importantly, your husband used to be in major hell level 1, then, accepted the most torturous punishment in Ussada hell. He then was born as a flesh-eating animal that hunted other animals for food, then, was born as a non-flesh-eating animal that was hunted by human and other animals, and eventually, has just recently been born as a human for a few lives.
  • Now, he is returning back to the same life cycle again which will lead him to the major hell again.
  • Therefore, you have to tell him to completely quit hunting and focus on generosity offering (dhana), precept observance (sila) and meditation (bhavana) in order to escape from these retributions.

2) Your oldest daughter and your husband’s mother passed away from the accident together because; in the past life, they both were siblings who fed animals and killed for food or for selling. When they killed a pig, your husband’s mother would tie the pig and your oldest daughter would slash. That is why both of them were killed at the same time for many past lives. 

  • In the first 7 days, your oldest daughter could recollect her merits and circumambulate Maha Dhammakaya Cetiya as per principle.
  • However, her merit power is not enough to return to the fourth level of heaven [Tusita]. Presently, she is an angel in the second level of heaven [Tavatimsa] phase 3. She has received all merits you have dedicated to her.
  • Your husband’s mother is a lower level of earth-sprite in line of ogre. You should dedicate more merits to her.
3) Your mother and your oldest daughter’s best friend who were severely injured but survived, because, in the past life, they both had killing kamma but they also had wholesomeness from offering medicines to monks and normal people.
  • They are lucky that their present killing kamma has not surfaced yet. If it surfaced, they would definitely die. Do not live carelessly. Retribution can surface anytime. 

4) Your mother used to be born in the society that did not listen to Dhamma, did not study about Dhamma and did not discuss Dhamma with wise men so she lacks wisdom and misbelieves that “killing animals for food is not demerit”. You should tell your mother “Whoever conducts either good or bad deeds will receive a consequence of the deeds.”
  • Everyone has their own deeds. Some consequences do not well match with present deeds but past deeds; i.e. Luang Phaw’s symptom does not come from present deeds but from past deeds.

  • If your mother still keeps killing animals, she will have short life-span in her next lives and have lots of illnesses. Please tell her to quit as the future retributions are not worthwhile.

5) Your husband’s older sister was addicted to playing cards and had lots of debts which caused her to leave her government career to escape from creditors because of her past kamma from associating with fools and being a fool herself. She used to persuade others to addictions in road to ruins as well so, in this life, she returned to the same cycle again. She had never listened to anyone who tried to stop her.
  • The retribution that caused her unable to die at your home since your mother refused her, is from the kamma that she made her parents suffer and scolded at her parents both in the past and present lives, and did not have wholesomeness from taking care of parents to support.

6) The reason that a monk in Nakorn Nayok province was kind to your husband’s older sister by taking care of her until her last moment and arranging her funeral is they used to support each other which influenced the monk to sympathise and have mercy towards her.
  • The story is, in that past life, the monk was a relative of your husband’s older sister and he was helped by her when he was suffering many times so once they met in this life, he kindly took care of her.

7) The retributions that caused your husband’s elder sister die from AIDS are adultery and killing kamma both in the past and present lives. After passing away, she went to purgatory hell.
  • She is being punished and tortured in gambling pit first and then she will have to go other pits as well. If you regularly dedicate merits to her, she will repay the kamma sooner.
8) The retribution that caused you to pay debts for your husband’s older sister is, in that past life, you were sibling of her and gave her pocket money to be a banker of gambling game as well as shared profits together so you have shared retributions together to this life and have to repay her debts as well as take care of her children.
  • You should think of it as “supporting relatives” which is a means of merit making. The way of thinking will make your mind ease with wholesomeness rather than thinking that you are repaying retributions.

9) You have retribution from hurting yourself to be sarcastic to your mother for many past lives so, in this life, you repeated it again.
  • However, there was a situation that influenced you and your husband fall in love because you and your husband used to be husband and wife since the past life that your husband was a hunter.

10) The reason that you lose in business after you quit selling groceries and changed to sell monks’ requisites and coffins is because your generosity offering perfection is insufficient and also you do not quit selling merchandises from false view; i.e. fish trapping nets, bird trapping nets, pesticides. The wholesomeness is unable to fully surface; although, you regularly offer generosity (dhana), observe precepts (sila) and meditate (bhavana).
  • You have to completely quit selling these merchandises and sell food or consumer products that people have to eat and use often and the wholesomeness will utmost surface.

11) You, your husband and your three children used to pursue perfections with Dhammakaya community as a provider who accrued merits dependant upon moods; i.e. sometimes did and the other times, did not, so in some lives we had met and the other lives we had missed.
  • Your third son has ordination blue print but is not firm. He requires very high encouragement to life time ordain.
  • You and everyone in your family should quit road to ruins, hold all precepts and pursue perfection at fullest efforts so everyone will rest at the fourth level of heaven (Tusita) together.
  • Since we have met each other in this life, therefore you must try to pursue perfection in all merits with fullest efforts and make a wish to follow the Dhammakaya community to the fourth level of heaven (Tusita), in the special merit zone – bodhisattva as well as do not be apart from each other again.


Case study in real life

The Law of Kamma (Pali:Compared to "Karma" in Sanskrit) segment or "Case Study" is one of the prominent sections on the Dream in Dream kindergarten program, conducted by the Venerable Phrarajbhavanavisudh, also known as, Luang Phaw Dhammajayo of the Dhammakaya Temple in Pathum Thani Province, Thailand.

Each individualized "Case Study" is based on the timeless Law of Kamma (the Law of Cause and Effect) which examines the reasons for many situations and complex inter-relationships people find themselves in. Viewers from around the world write personal letters to Luang Phaw wanting to understand the karmic reasons for many special circumstances in their life.

This program is not intended to convert anyone to Buddhism or any other religions persuasion. Rather the goal is to help spread genuine peace, happiness and understanding here in Thailand and around the world. By first discovering and cultivating inner peace within ourselves through meditation, we can help spread love and kindness outward, helping to make our world a better place for everyone.


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