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ERVICE S Sometimes, after offering food to monks, I did not pour ceremonial water immediately but had some drinks first. Apart from being an alcoholic, I was also a lottery addict. Every fortnight, I bought lottery that cost about seven to ten thousand baht, but I never won any prizes. My husband told me to save this amount of money in a bank. He said that it would be like I won the lottery prize when the results were drawn because all the money that I have saved all this while will still be with me. Back then, I was a ferocious and ill-tempered person. Everybody was afraid of me, including my mother and my husband. Once, I struck my sister's head with a chopping knife. Her scull was broken, and her head was covered with blood. I persisted and continued hitting her again with a bottle of soft drink. Her head was terribly injured and bled profusely the second time. My sister-in-law was also hit by a pair of hot tongs that burned and peeled off her skin. I also hit my brother and kicked him on his chin as he bowed before me asking me to have pity on him. He bled as a result of my kicks. No one could stop my anger. When I got angry, everybody had to listen to me. They could not argue or walk away. My husband was so afraid that I saw him shaking in fear each time I lost my temper. I asked him why he was so afraid of me. He said that when I got mad, it seemed like I was possessed by a ghost. I lived my life this way until I went to the Panawat Meditation Park in 2003. I took my mother along with me as she was also an alcoholic. When we both listened to the sermon of Luang Phaw Dhammajayo from DMC channel at Panawat, we then recognized the truth of life. Meditation had the power to calm me down. When I first practiced meditation, my legs ached but the pain went away as I prayed to the Great Master. My mind kept focusing on the centre of my body and I could see the light inside my stomach. I felt happy and free like I was in a vast and fresh open field. I felt like my body was covered with crystals and my stomach expanded and the light shining within me got brighter. I was filled with joy. Several hours of meditation seemed like a short time for me. I continued meditating until someone called out to me to have a meal. During meditation, I realized that there is no other happiness greater than the inner happiness which is derived from meditation. It was a really blissful moment. PDF created with pdfFactory Pro trial version www.pdffactory.com