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CERVICE Testimony 5 Ms Pornprachern Boonsungnern, USA "When I love others, I give that person 100 percent, but in turn the hurt I get is equivalent to what I give. If I love myself, I give to myself 100 percent. In return, I receive abundant and overflowing happiness every single day and night in my life. I hope to expand and share this wondrous joy with people all over the world." My name is Pornprachern Boonsungnern, and I am 49 years old and living in Nevada, USA. Both my Thai friends and foreign fellows know me for my songs 'I am another woman', 'I am Thai' and 'Must fight to win' Although most of them praise me for my sweet voice, in reality my life is full of bitterness and suffering I was born in Korat (Nakornratchasima province). I lost my mother when I was young and my father is paralyzed. As a son, I have many siblings in my family and we have to take care of one another and share our love and warmth together. Our family was very poor. Once, we had to scour a garbage pile for food and we walked to school barefoot because we could not afford shoes. My life got better when I attended a singing contest in 1985 and clinched the top singing award at Siam Konlakarn. Other singers such as Berd (Thongchai McIntai) also attended the contest that year. After my win, I successfully released my own album. Although I was secure about myself physically, I could not find any solution to solve the problems that resided in my heart. The problem that I faced was my continued failure in love. I never got along with my boyfriends. I wished to have endless love but it was always short lived and this eventually depleted me of energy. I often asked myself why I had to go through all this pain and why no one truly loved me although I had given them my love and took care of them wholeheartedly. At the end of the day, I was always the one who ended up heartbroken Fortunately, I did not let myself down for too long. I restrained myself and gathered my strength to persevere. When I felt really sad, I would tell myself each time to continue fighting and win. To solve the problems, I would go to Buddhist temples and make PDF created with pdfFactory Pro trial version www.pdffactory.com