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the unfulfilled wish to find her father disappeared completely. Finally she asked forgiveness for her childhood trespasses against her father, bringing her long-lived quest to completion. Father put his hands in a gesture of prayer and granted her forgiveness. He explained he had only cursed her on that occasion out of anger and in fact had no intention that his daughter be deaf - but if it were something still upsetting her, of course he granted his forgiveness. As they parted, Chandra reminded her father that he would have to keep up his meditation or else he would slip back into the hell realms from whence he had come. Having fulfilled her quest, Chandra found she could see things clearly — according to reality. When we are born, we cannot escape old-age, sickness and eventually death. Through our physical existence alone we can gain nothing, because in the end, it all returns to dust. Our material wealth is like borrowed property. We cannot take it with us when we go. Through the Eye of the Dhammakāya she could see that when we die, we take with us nothing but the merit and the evil we have collected through our actions during our life — that we are born as a human being, the supreme opportunity in existence, with the aim in life to overcome suffering. The direct route to escaping suffering is by following the celibate life [brahmacariya] and the highest merit of all is to ordain and keep the purest precepts. Most people think that it is only appropriate for old people to turn pious, but at the age of twenty-nine, Chandra was ready to renounce the lay-life. She wanted to go further with her meditation and conduct meditation research in the tradition of the Great Abbot of Wat Paknam. She worked even harder than usual for her